I need everyone to be there.

Picture it... my office, November 17th, 2009. There are four cities that my department is in. An email went out to one of the cities that was copied to me, a meeting scheduled for the following day & everyone required to attend. I had an appointment for LuLu's eyes to be checked on the 18th and wouldn't have been able to attend the meeting. Long story short, went to my manager and asked if our site was also required to attend. We're not usually required to go to meetings so when he said "I really need you to reschedule your appointment, I need everyone at the meeting" I knew it couldn't be good.
I went home that night thinking about what could possibly be going on.

1. they want us to dress business casual
2. they're blocking all internet access.
3. they want our department to go to third shift only.

I must've come up with a dozen or more things that I thought it could've been, hoping it wasn't what I dreaded.

Meeting time came and we all congregated in the tiny little room. The last to arrive was our manager. He came in with huge envelopes and sat down. "Well, what I have to say to you isn't going to be easy so I'll just come out with it. We've been displaced."

He went on to tell us how we would be reassigning our remaining business to the departments that would remain with the company. The four sites that came over during the merger which included my site would work as quickly as possible and leave the building as soon as possible. Our active employment would be until December 4th. The our inactive employment would begin and go through until January 19th. Then our severance packages would begin and continue based on each individual's date of service. As you can probably imagine, it hit us all like a ton of bricks.

Then on the 25th... they offered us temporary postions....

to be continued

Chiropractor...

I have been having horrible neck and back pain... for well over a month. Nothing made it any better and it seemed to be getting worse. I've been thinking about going to a chiropractor and one day last week a friend of mine showed up at my desk telling me about the chiropractor she's seeing. Well, colour me referred!
I called, they apparently thought my cry for help warranted an immediate appointment. I went in yesterday for the paperwork, etc. She also did x-rays and offered insight into what may be ailing me.. A few things that she mentioned was that I was delivered by forceps. I know it sounds... well WAY out there... but she said that being forcefully pulled from the nice warm cave that I had grown comfortably in also pulled apart well stuff that I needed. Anyway... I'm not having the best time personally right now.. so... I had a total melt down. I felt like all at once I'd just been told from the very beginning of my life I had had no control over anything, people taking liberties they felt were right. Natural delivery or let's pull all her little connectors apart and screw her up from the start? Breast or Bottle? Will dad continue to smoke in my presence or "It ain't hurtin' me"? - Then she started talking about the studies that had been done and that were linking forceps delivered babies to ADD/ADHD. and all over again... with the breakdown... now I've done the same thing to my son that was done to me out of pure ignorance.. and I'm no better than my mother and blaming myself that I should've known better (at 20), geesh... Then telling me how I need to learn to be more positive and begin a forgiveness process. That after 33 years of packing all these emotions down, of being negative, of being well being how I was raised - that now... I have to retrain myself. (yes, I've known this for sometime. but to hear it from someone outside my head is a little startling)
I went in today to read the xrays and for my first adjustment. It was very different from the last time I went to a chiropractor. The last time... he shocked me some.. then lay me and crack me. Once I thought he started from across the room, took a run and landed on my back. Oh, but yes... it felt much better.
Today, after we read the xrays she explained what she would be doing today for my first adjustment. My version is... There was no cracking... there was no sounds of me being a landing pad.. what there was instead...was pressure points.
Now remember that I went in complaining of back and neck pain. Well, she started with the pressure points on the side of my knees?? anyway... I had no idea that there was pain there... but, Holy Crap! there was! And lots of it! because the pain didn't dissipate while she worked on me, She said she would continue to work on that area. She also gave me words, numbers and thoughts to focus on. I go back on Thursday and I'll leave you with today's words.. pleasurable and enjoyment